It's always a bit uncomfortable when we're convicted of our wrongdoings and behavior. My conviction typically comes in the form or a scripture coming to mind that completely counters what I'm doing. This past week was flooded with this disappointing feeling of failing to live up to God's standard. Surprisingly, it was in relation to eating and not the US Presidential Inauguration.
You all know that I've been on this health journey and have since transitioned to a vegetarian diet. Don't be fooled. Vegetarian doesn't equate to healthy. While away at a work training, I had access to food 24/7...literally. Each sleeping area of the campus had its own kitchen stocked with snacks of every kind, in addition to the hearty meals that were already served during breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Knowing this going in, I was determined not to let it get the best of me. Alas...it did.
After several meals (and snacks), Galatians 5:22-23 came to mind.
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no Law" (NIV)
I was lacking the latter fruit-- self control. As I self talked myself away from another bag of chips and dessert, I couldn't help but be hard on myself. I was discipline enough to abstain from sex until marriage and go to the gym everyday, but somehow, food got the best of me. How could these be? It would seem as though discipline and self control in one area doesn't translate to another. Food, for me, is the achilles heel amidst my, otherwise, very self controlled life.
So, as small as it may seem, food had a way of making me feel as though I wasn't displaying godly behavior. It may not be food for you, but the lesson is the same. It doesn't have to be a "big sin" to be wrong. Gluttony is as much a sin as sexual immorality. Both need to be surrendered to Christ and conquered. Nothing is too small to bring before God for deliverance from.
As for me, I'm now tracking my meals to hold myself accountable. How are you holding yourself accountable?